Mistaken Experience

Aptitude, it’s %100 relative, just like everything else.  This is preemptive in that I’m getting a violin monday.  Sure, I’m going to suck, but how bad….  We shall see.

Seriously, I just don’t post often anymore.  I guess I just feel that if I’m not posting something happy or helpful, that I’m not accomplishing anything.  I’m not a happy person, summer isn’t suiting me.  The lack of fencing is driving me a little insane.  Tomorrow is one of my first weekdays off that I’ve had since Atlanta.  I dunno, maybe I’ll paint that piece for the arrow compilation.  Or you know, maybe I’ll just never do that like I said I was going to.  Whatever…. I just get this feeling that people I got so close to have just lost their drive to be my friend.  Am I shocked or surprised?  Not really, its no fun being friends with emo kids… Its no fun being emo either.  Sad thing is, its a vicious cycle.  I’m emo because I loose all my friends, I loose more friends because I’m so emo, I’m left rather alone.